2010 the year of no FEAR! - Second post - 24-01-10

Hi!
Wow 2 post in less than 1 hour! haha
It's really really late here now.

I don't reallly have a lot of friends.
When i was in school, when i was 6 i had a lot of friends - I thougt -
I was 6, and everyone is young, and friendly, so no one is alone.
When i was 9 or 10 i started to feel alone, i was with 7 girls in a class and 8 boys.
The girls were nice, but the kinda ingored me.
When i was 11 i started with feeling really alone, i was totaly ignored, sometimes they talked to me, but only if they needed me, not just to say something.
But my teachers didn't do anything.
Sometimes i said to my mom that i was feeling sick, so i didn't have to go to school.
When i was 12 and it was the last class of school it was so hard for me.
I said to myself that i was gonna find new friends on high school.
But i hoped that the girls in my class didn't ignore me the last year, but it was the same as the last year.
That time i ignored the girls too, but we were going to visit schools, so the whole class had to go cycling.
I was always alone and has to hear everyone talking.

Now i'm 13
I'm in high school now.
In the vacation, i was hoping that everything would change, but it didn't.
The girls are nice sometimes, but if we have to work in a litte group or in pairs, im -again- always alone, or i am number 3
So mostly i have to go to the teacher and say that there's no one left to work with.
And they're always mad at me, because they say i don't work good with them, i hate that because i try to do my best.
And because i'm older i think always about who i am, and what the think about me.

Who I Am - Nick Jonas & The Administration
I want someone to love me

For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?

Nothing makes sense,
Nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right,
nothing is right when you're gone
I'm losing my breath,
I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death,
I'm frightened that I won't be strong

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am

I'm shaking it off,
I'm shaking off all of the pain.
Breaking my heart,
Breaking my heart once again

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am

At last, something that i almost forgot:
I have one realy good friend, and i know that i can say anything to her.
But i live 149,7 kilometer away from her.
I really wished that she was my neighbor!!
I hope she reads this, because i love her!

xoxo