What! I forgot it! haha - 20-02-2010

Hi!
Do you remember the post about a video??
2twenty6ten...???
I said i was gonna post the video, but i didn't
So... I do it now :)

I just hate my life now :( -18-02-2010

Hey!
I just kinda hate my life now!
My mom and i are in a fight again :(
I have to much homework!
I don't have space to make it, because tomorrow they're gonna rebuild my house :(
There are no table's in the house, they're all somewere else.
I have to make my homework, otherwise they teachers are gonna be mad :(
Only tomorrow school, than a week vacation, but it's gonna be the worst ever.
The 'buildmans' (sorry, don't know what it means in english) are comming, they start at 7.30AM(!!!)
So i have to wake up at 7(AM)... but! I'm gonna sleep by my grandparents.
Maybe there's comming anothers post later
XOXO

Need to write now - 17-02-2010

Hi everyone!

Normally i just write, but now i need to write.
I'm kinda scared... I wasn't at school for 3days because i wasn't feeling well.
And tommorow i'm going and i don't know what they are gonna say to me, I'm afraid they're not gonna say anything.
Or I'm afraid that i'm gonna cry, i don't know.
I wish i had my bff here, but we live really far away from each other! And i hate that.

Last week i had a talk with someone at my school, someone who helps people with their problems.
It was like the man wanted me to cry.
When i was crying he said: "This is who you are, someone who cries if you need, or talks when you are in a good mood, and if you don't want to talk(or can't talk) you be quiet."
When i sat there i wanted to run away from everything, nobody know anything about me, I'm not a person who cries when i need it, I just cry because what i feel.
Sorry, maybe you don't understand that.
But i know Who I Am, and nobody else knows, maybe one person, not more.
I was kinda mad when i was home, and i was thinking about it that night, but i am just myself!
When i think of it i be kinda mad again.

I'm going to sleep now, because it's late for a schoolday
Goodnight
XOXO -Ayla

Don't feeling very well :( 14-02-2010

Hii!!
Happy valentine's day!!
For me it's just an ordinary day, but i just wish happyness for others :)
I'm watching Ghost Wisperer, I'm kinda crying, so sad :'( haha

Like the title said, I'm not feeling well, and i don''t wanna go to school tomorrow.
It's not because of the girls, but i have a lot of thinks in my mind, and I'm kinda worried :(
Just had to write this, for now i don't now if i have something to say.

OMG There's a really funny comercial on the tv right now, haha!

I had to make homework for tuesday, but i didn't make it, so i have to do it al tomorrow :(
I don't wanna think about school in the weekends, and i think a lot of people agree with me :)
I just wanna do fun thinks then, but mostly I'm just at home, I'm happy i have my laptop all the time, so i can do fun things at home :)

Oké, last thing was way way way to long! haha
I have only this week school, and then i have a week vacation!! :)
This was it for now... i think, I'm watching Ghost Wisperer... Scary, sad, everything...
Sorry but i'm gonna watch 100% haha

XOXO Ayla♥

Just can't without this blog! 14-02-2010

Hii!
I've made another kinda blog thing, but i can't without this one!
This is much personal then the other
http://aylablackkeys.tumblr.com/
Just wanted to let you know, i think tomorrow or Monday i start with really writing on this blog again!
xoxo

Hii!

Hello!
It's late here!
But i don't care and I'm listening to the Planet Premier @RadioDisney from the soundtrack Starstruck :)
It's cool music!
But... talking about music.
I know a girl, Savannah Outen.
I know her music a lot time, but i deleted it from my computer.
Since a week i listen a lot to Radio Disney again :)
Then i heard Fighting For My Life from Savannah Outen.
I liked the song, and i wanted to download it.
After 3 days, i think, i downloaded it.
I found a Youtube video with downloadlink.
In the video were the lyrics to the song.
I just started to sing a long, and then i started to cry...

You stole my words and twisted them to yours 'till there was nothing left to say
You were the chill in the air whenever I turned
Turned away
Honestly you had to know how much it was killing me I had no choice,
I just had to leave

You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never, but I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I,
I just kept on flying Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!

Did your best to twist the lie and hold me under till I couldn’t See
Tried your hardest to take and break the voice that I have deep inside of me
I can’t pretend I didn’t learn the hard way but never again
You had your chance, but it just had to end

You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never, but I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I, I just kept on flying
Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!

No you won’t take me crying
No more tears falling on the floor
All the pain that I’ve survived
Made me stronger than ever beforeeeeee, yeah

You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never,
But I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I, I just kept on flying
Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!
You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never,
But I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings
I, I just kept on flying Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!


maybe you understand all this...
maybe you don't understand this...
But i understand it.
And maybe, if you have read all my blogposts then you understand


Haha, Nick Jonas just did a twitter spree...
I was tweeting! But i didn't get a reply :(
I really hope i get a reply sometime...
But i was lucky now... because i was there when he did a twitter spree, so i did get a chance, other people who are asleep now, did know it...
Oké i really need to stop with my long stories... haha


Goodnight People!!
XOXO

I think it's time for a long post! - 05-02-2010

Hii people!
How you'll doing??

Today was uncool! :(
They always ignore me, and they don't stop!
Only when we had a test, than they ask me how i did it! :(
I sat alone this morning, there were 2 girls from my class, but they didn't say anything and then they were gonna sit on the other side of the table. :(
I just don't know why they don't like me.
But I've got a plan!
Monday i have a talk with someone at my school, I don't really want to go, but i have to :(
And maybe tommorow i gonna send a mail to my mentor.
I wanna talk about it with the whole class, not only the girls, or the man, who I'm gonna talk Monday, or my mentor, no, the whone class!
Because I'm getting sick of it! really, I'm going craaaaazyy!!

So... I write this all.. but i know that no one is gonna read it, maybe 1 or 2, but not more than that.
It's just a therapy for me.

And..!
I'm gonna do a English exam!!
My English teacher told today that it was possible to do a exam, and i can do one next year if i want, and maybe 2 years later another one!
And i can't fail, it's just how good you are, its good for later if you wanna go to a College or a University.
Because I'm from the Netherlands, it's kinda inportant i have one, because maybe i wanna study somewere in the US.
I don't know, and i have a lot of years to think about that, haha
But I'm gonna sleep now, It's really late here!

Goodnight xoxo - Ayla

2twenty6ten ???? - 01-02-2010

Hii
So... A short post!!
I found a video!!
And nobody knows what it's about!!
This is the link(tomorrow I'll post the vid)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OyeJ_jh1RjY
Byee!!

Jonas, Demi, Miley, Selena??? - 01-02-2010

Hi(again XD)
I was reading my blog...
And then i figured out that i talk a lot about The Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez.
Maybe you don't know who they are, so... Here are a couple pictures

Jonas Brothers

Demi Lovato

Miley Cyrus

Selena Gomez(sorry! I didn't have a better pic)

xoxo Ayla

Disney!! - 01-02-2010

Hello Hello!

Today was soooo cool!!
I sat alone because the girls who are sitting with me normally were sitting somewhere else :(
But... last week i said that there was a girl who was sitting next to me SHE DID IT AGAIN!
But this time was diffirent... this weekend she added me as friend @ YouTube and she said that when she was sitting next to me.
Then she asked if i had seen all the episodes of JONAS
She knows that i'm a big fan of The Jonas Brothers.
Then we talked about Demi & Selena and Miley!
So cool!
But after that lession we didn't talk anymore.
And it was the last Art lession :(
But i hope that we're gonna talk more, because she's is a cool person

xoxo Ayla