Heey.
It's late here, but I don't care. :)
I'm saying that I'm a fan of a lot of different singers.
But now I know who's the best of all.
I swear. If you hear her you're blown away!
Not only on CD, but live and stuff like that. She's was on Oprah and Ellen Degreneres when she was still young.
She performden with super-famous singers.
Charice!
She is so amazing! <3
Click on the links on top of the video screen thing otherwise you'll see half of the video, because it's to big and I can't get it smaller. :(
This is her song Pyramid. That's the song I know her from. This is the studio version. It sounds different then the music video.
And there's another song I really love!
But I can't find the studio version on Youtube.
But I'll show you later!!
I really love Selena, Demi & Miley too ofcourse, but Charice is just the best.,
Not because she's not from Disney - Just wanna let you know, I really don't care about that! - I just love her. :)
And she's really my rolemodel.
Miley changes so much, Selena & Demi are just awesome. I still love them all. But Charice tops them all! :)
XXX Ayla <3
vrijdag 25 juni 2010
I didn't forget my blog! I just didn't had time for it! :( - 25-06-2010
Hi everyone :)
I'm not feeling well.
It getting worst and worst, my class is horrible.
Tuesday I cried because of them.
I'm inviseble for them, I'm 'no one'.
It's almost vacation! :)
My little brothers birthday is August 15th. :)
He gets a Playstation Portable for his b-day.
I'm kinda jealous! :O
And I played on it first. :P
We bought it yesterday and 'cause I'm home my mom showed me.
I played on it for 15 minutes or something. But I was cool. :)
Now -ofcourse- I want a birthday present too, but my b-day is on November! More than 5 months!! :(
I want a PSP too, but I don't know, 'cause I really want an iPod Touch too.
I'm not gonna ask my mom yet, I'm afraid she gets mad.
And I really miss Twitter. :(
X.
Ayla
I'm not feeling well.
It getting worst and worst, my class is horrible.
Tuesday I cried because of them.
I'm inviseble for them, I'm 'no one'.
It's almost vacation! :)
My little brothers birthday is August 15th. :)
He gets a Playstation Portable for his b-day.
I'm kinda jealous! :O
And I played on it first. :P
We bought it yesterday and 'cause I'm home my mom showed me.
I played on it for 15 minutes or something. But I was cool. :)
Now -ofcourse- I want a birthday present too, but my b-day is on November! More than 5 months!! :(
I want a PSP too, but I don't know, 'cause I really want an iPod Touch too.
I'm not gonna ask my mom yet, I'm afraid she gets mad.
And I really miss Twitter. :(
X.
Ayla
zondag 16 mei 2010
The worst week ever. - 16-05-2010
Heey everyone.
It's gonna be the worst week in my life.
Ofcours because of my classmates.
My counselor wanted a talk with me on Tuesday. That's at 2:30PM. When we are done, he wants a talk with me, my mentor and my mom. That's till 4PM.
Officially I'm done at 2:10PM, but now I have to be at school till 4PM.
And then, on Thursday, I'm done at 3:10PM, but then I have social-skills training(it sounds better in Dutch) till 4PM.
I'm definetly really tired after this week.
And my mom needs to work a lot, sometimes it's better for me, so I'm alone a bit more, but sometimes I hate it that she has to work.
Tomorrow I have school for 5 hours, But the last 2 hours I have technicks, I hate that subject! And I really don't wanna go. But I have to.
I secretly hope everyone starts with a new project, so I can start with it too, and then finish my other project later, btw, I need to finish 2 other projects too.
I miss my grandparents so much!
They're on vacation in Germany, for 6 weeks!
I never missed them when they were on vacation, but now I miss them.Nor
I think my grandparents are at the place were they wanted to be, in Wintrich.
I really wanna go there too, because I love that place. But I can't. Stupid school!
I need to go to school for 9 weeks. That's nothing!!
I'm almost crying cause I'm so happy! I really thought it was longer!
44 days school! YAY!
Maybe you think 44 days is weird. I'll show you.
5daysx9weeks=45days-1day=44days
That one day I'm free, because it's "pinksteren" then.(Sorry, I don't know the English word!)
When I think about my grandparents and school, I'm realizing that time goes fast, really fast.
When the 6 weeks are over I only have to go to school for 3 weeks.
And the class is planning a class-party and my mentor said it had to be in 4 weeks, (I'm not going), so if there's a date for it, it goes faster, and faster, and faster.
Time flies, that's one thing I can say, sometimes it doesn't.
Maybe I'm gonna make something to count the days, so I can draw a cross if the day is over.
I did that before the Jonas Brothers concert, and the time flied, so if I do this, maybe the time is going faster.
Sorry for all the drama, I hate it to, but I needed to write something.
xxx ♥
It's gonna be the worst week in my life.
Ofcours because of my classmates.
My counselor wanted a talk with me on Tuesday. That's at 2:30PM. When we are done, he wants a talk with me, my mentor and my mom. That's till 4PM.
Officially I'm done at 2:10PM, but now I have to be at school till 4PM.
And then, on Thursday, I'm done at 3:10PM, but then I have social-skills training(it sounds better in Dutch) till 4PM.
I'm definetly really tired after this week.
And my mom needs to work a lot, sometimes it's better for me, so I'm alone a bit more, but sometimes I hate it that she has to work.
Tomorrow I have school for 5 hours, But the last 2 hours I have technicks, I hate that subject! And I really don't wanna go. But I have to.
I secretly hope everyone starts with a new project, so I can start with it too, and then finish my other project later, btw, I need to finish 2 other projects too.
I miss my grandparents so much!
They're on vacation in Germany, for 6 weeks!
I never missed them when they were on vacation, but now I miss them.Nor
I think my grandparents are at the place were they wanted to be, in Wintrich.
I really wanna go there too, because I love that place. But I can't. Stupid school!
I need to go to school for 9 weeks. That's nothing!!
I'm almost crying cause I'm so happy! I really thought it was longer!
44 days school! YAY!
Maybe you think 44 days is weird. I'll show you.
5daysx9weeks=45days-1day=44days
That one day I'm free, because it's "pinksteren" then.(Sorry, I don't know the English word!)
When I think about my grandparents and school, I'm realizing that time goes fast, really fast.
When the 6 weeks are over I only have to go to school for 3 weeks.
And the class is planning a class-party and my mentor said it had to be in 4 weeks, (I'm not going), so if there's a date for it, it goes faster, and faster, and faster.
Time flies, that's one thing I can say, sometimes it doesn't.
Maybe I'm gonna make something to count the days, so I can draw a cross if the day is over.
I did that before the Jonas Brothers concert, and the time flied, so if I do this, maybe the time is going faster.
Sorry for all the drama, I hate it to, but I needed to write something.
xxx ♥
maandag 10 mei 2010
Long time no post. - 10-05-2010
Hii!
It's not going well.
I hate my life, like I said before... but it's worst.
I get bullied.
I supossed to be at school now, but I stayd home, I'm not feeling well because of my classmates, I was shaking all morning.
Even my favorite things, like watching 'Aaron Stone' didn't calm me down.
I so happy to have a friend. Not just a friend. The best friend someone can have.
We are talking via msn a lot, and I'm really happy with that. :)
Tomorrow I'm going to school again.
I kinda don't want to, but I have to and I'm really going.
I have an Ipod, so I'm not alone. :P
Sorry for the short post, I needed to post something, but I didn't know what to write. :P
xoxo. Ayla. ♥
It's not going well.
I hate my life, like I said before... but it's worst.
I get bullied.
I supossed to be at school now, but I stayd home, I'm not feeling well because of my classmates, I was shaking all morning.
Even my favorite things, like watching 'Aaron Stone' didn't calm me down.
I so happy to have a friend. Not just a friend. The best friend someone can have.
We are talking via msn a lot, and I'm really happy with that. :)
Tomorrow I'm going to school again.
I kinda don't want to, but I have to and I'm really going.
I have an Ipod, so I'm not alone. :P
Sorry for the short post, I needed to post something, but I didn't know what to write. :P
xoxo. Ayla. ♥
zaterdag 24 april 2010
... - 24-04-2010
Hey,
It's weekend, in less then an hour it's Sunday, haha.
I only have to go to school Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday and then I have almost 2 weeks vacation! :)
And in like 3 or 4 months I have summervacation! :) And where going to Germany!! : D
Thinking 'bout vacation...
I hope I can sleep till like 10AM or something, because it was a long time ago that I sleeped till that late.
It's alway early cause: 1) School. 2) On Saturday I bring around advertisment papers, so i have to wake up 8am(early!) 3) On Sundag morning, 10AM there comes a movie, and I always wanna see that, and I'm obsessed with Kelly Blatz for Aaron stone, and that comes at 9:30AM so I wanna see that too.
When I have vacation I hope that I can sleep longer, cause I'm getting stressed!
I'm not feeling well, so I'm gonna sleep
Goodnight!
It's weekend, in less then an hour it's Sunday, haha.
I only have to go to school Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday and then I have almost 2 weeks vacation! :)
And in like 3 or 4 months I have summervacation! :) And where going to Germany!! : D
Thinking 'bout vacation...
I hope I can sleep till like 10AM or something, because it was a long time ago that I sleeped till that late.
It's alway early cause: 1) School. 2) On Saturday I bring around advertisment papers, so i have to wake up 8am(early!) 3) On Sundag morning, 10AM there comes a movie, and I always wanna see that, and I'm obsessed with Kelly Blatz for Aaron stone, and that comes at 9:30AM so I wanna see that too.
When I have vacation I hope that I can sleep longer, cause I'm getting stressed!
I'm not feeling well, so I'm gonna sleep
Goodnight!
zondag 11 april 2010
Music! ♥ - 11-4-2010
Hi Everyone!
I'm downloading some songs, some are new, some are old, but that doesn't matter. :)
The things is, I remember last year, in summervaction, I'll tell the story:
It was the first week of summervacation. In the second and third week we were going to Germany(I live in The Nederlands) I love music and i had an ipod, so i downloaded a lot of music for if we were going to drive, it's a long way ya know, haha. I was listening to RadioDisney all week, all day. All the cool songs i wrote down, in the end of the week i downloaded all the songs. And puted them on my ipod.
That was the story, but what i wanted to tell you.
Since a week or something i think about the vaction, and maybe where not going. but i wanna go this vaction!
I even have song cool places in my mind!
I'm downloading a lot of music, like i did last year, and it's not even summervaction!
I kinda NEED to go on vaction this year, don't know why.
Today I'm gonna ask my mom, but I think she can't say anything about it, because i always go with my Grandparents on vacantion(and with my mom and little bro ofcoarse!
xoxo
I'm downloading some songs, some are new, some are old, but that doesn't matter. :)
The things is, I remember last year, in summervaction, I'll tell the story:
It was the first week of summervacation. In the second and third week we were going to Germany(I live in The Nederlands) I love music and i had an ipod, so i downloaded a lot of music for if we were going to drive, it's a long way ya know, haha. I was listening to RadioDisney all week, all day. All the cool songs i wrote down, in the end of the week i downloaded all the songs. And puted them on my ipod.
That was the story, but what i wanted to tell you.
Since a week or something i think about the vaction, and maybe where not going. but i wanna go this vaction!
I even have song cool places in my mind!
I'm downloading a lot of music, like i did last year, and it's not even summervaction!
I kinda NEED to go on vaction this year, don't know why.
Today I'm gonna ask my mom, but I think she can't say anything about it, because i always go with my Grandparents on vacantion(and with my mom and little bro ofcoarse!
xoxo
vrijdag 2 april 2010
A Little Bit Longer... - 02-04-2010
Hey,
Why does life have to be so hard??
I'm in the biggest fight ever. :(
With my grandma, my mom said it to me, she was crying on the phone.
My behavior is really bad, and i just can't help it.
I really want it my behavior to be better, please trust me.
I'n crying right now.... I'm a bad person... and i know it's bad to think, but it's just how it it's.
And tomorrow we're going to the shops, my grandma isn't coming... and it's because of me.
So i don't know if i wanna go, but i need new clothes, and i want to buy a cd, but i don't know if I'm gonna buy it...
I love U all! xxx
Why does life have to be so hard??
I'm in the biggest fight ever. :(
With my grandma, my mom said it to me, she was crying on the phone.
My behavior is really bad, and i just can't help it.
I really want it my behavior to be better, please trust me.
I'n crying right now.... I'm a bad person... and i know it's bad to think, but it's just how it it's.
And tomorrow we're going to the shops, my grandma isn't coming... and it's because of me.
So i don't know if i wanna go, but i need new clothes, and i want to buy a cd, but i don't know if I'm gonna buy it...
I love U all! xxx
donderdag 18 maart 2010
OMG
Hii!!
A month ago i blogged for the last time, i think that is reeeeally long!
And i missed it!
A lot is happend, most things where really hard for me, and i could not blog about it!~
I was at my grandparents house for more than three weeks!
It's a short post now, because i don't know something to write, maybe i'll know something tonight
xoxo Ayla
A month ago i blogged for the last time, i think that is reeeeally long!
And i missed it!
A lot is happend, most things where really hard for me, and i could not blog about it!~
I was at my grandparents house for more than three weeks!
It's a short post now, because i don't know something to write, maybe i'll know something tonight
xoxo Ayla
zaterdag 20 februari 2010
What! I forgot it! haha - 20-02-2010
Hi!
Do you remember the post about a video??
2twenty6ten...???
I said i was gonna post the video, but i didn't
So... I do it now :)
Do you remember the post about a video??
2twenty6ten...???
I said i was gonna post the video, but i didn't
So... I do it now :)
donderdag 18 februari 2010
I just hate my life now :( -18-02-2010
Hey!
I just kinda hate my life now!
My mom and i are in a fight again :(
I have to much homework!
I don't have space to make it, because tomorrow they're gonna rebuild my house :(
There are no table's in the house, they're all somewere else.
I have to make my homework, otherwise they teachers are gonna be mad :(
Only tomorrow school, than a week vacation, but it's gonna be the worst ever.
The 'buildmans' (sorry, don't know what it means in english) are comming, they start at 7.30AM(!!!)
So i have to wake up at 7(AM)... but! I'm gonna sleep by my grandparents.
Maybe there's comming anothers post later
XOXO
I just kinda hate my life now!
My mom and i are in a fight again :(
I have to much homework!
I don't have space to make it, because tomorrow they're gonna rebuild my house :(
There are no table's in the house, they're all somewere else.
I have to make my homework, otherwise they teachers are gonna be mad :(
Only tomorrow school, than a week vacation, but it's gonna be the worst ever.
The 'buildmans' (sorry, don't know what it means in english) are comming, they start at 7.30AM(!!!)
So i have to wake up at 7(AM)... but! I'm gonna sleep by my grandparents.
Maybe there's comming anothers post later
XOXO
woensdag 17 februari 2010
Need to write now - 17-02-2010
Hi everyone!
Normally i just write, but now i need to write.
I'm kinda scared... I wasn't at school for 3days because i wasn't feeling well.
And tommorow i'm going and i don't know what they are gonna say to me, I'm afraid they're not gonna say anything.
Or I'm afraid that i'm gonna cry, i don't know.
I wish i had my bff here, but we live really far away from each other! And i hate that.
Last week i had a talk with someone at my school, someone who helps people with their problems.
It was like the man wanted me to cry.
When i was crying he said: "This is who you are, someone who cries if you need, or talks when you are in a good mood, and if you don't want to talk(or can't talk) you be quiet."
When i sat there i wanted to run away from everything, nobody know anything about me, I'm not a person who cries when i need it, I just cry because what i feel.
Sorry, maybe you don't understand that.
But i know Who I Am, and nobody else knows, maybe one person, not more.
I was kinda mad when i was home, and i was thinking about it that night, but i am just myself!
When i think of it i be kinda mad again.
I'm going to sleep now, because it's late for a schoolday
Goodnight
XOXO -Ayla
Normally i just write, but now i need to write.
I'm kinda scared... I wasn't at school for 3days because i wasn't feeling well.
And tommorow i'm going and i don't know what they are gonna say to me, I'm afraid they're not gonna say anything.
Or I'm afraid that i'm gonna cry, i don't know.
I wish i had my bff here, but we live really far away from each other! And i hate that.
Last week i had a talk with someone at my school, someone who helps people with their problems.
It was like the man wanted me to cry.
When i was crying he said: "This is who you are, someone who cries if you need, or talks when you are in a good mood, and if you don't want to talk(or can't talk) you be quiet."
When i sat there i wanted to run away from everything, nobody know anything about me, I'm not a person who cries when i need it, I just cry because what i feel.
Sorry, maybe you don't understand that.
But i know Who I Am, and nobody else knows, maybe one person, not more.
I was kinda mad when i was home, and i was thinking about it that night, but i am just myself!
When i think of it i be kinda mad again.
I'm going to sleep now, because it's late for a schoolday
Goodnight
XOXO -Ayla
zondag 14 februari 2010
Don't feeling very well :( 14-02-2010
Hii!!
Happy valentine's day!!
For me it's just an ordinary day, but i just wish happyness for others :)
I'm watching Ghost Wisperer, I'm kinda crying, so sad :'( haha
Like the title said, I'm not feeling well, and i don''t wanna go to school tomorrow.
It's not because of the girls, but i have a lot of thinks in my mind, and I'm kinda worried :(
Just had to write this, for now i don't now if i have something to say.
OMG There's a really funny comercial on the tv right now, haha!
I had to make homework for tuesday, but i didn't make it, so i have to do it al tomorrow :(
I don't wanna think about school in the weekends, and i think a lot of people agree with me :)
I just wanna do fun thinks then, but mostly I'm just at home, I'm happy i have my laptop all the time, so i can do fun things at home :)
Oké, last thing was way way way to long! haha
I have only this week school, and then i have a week vacation!! :)
This was it for now... i think, I'm watching Ghost Wisperer... Scary, sad, everything...
Sorry but i'm gonna watch 100% haha
XOXO Ayla♥
Happy valentine's day!!
For me it's just an ordinary day, but i just wish happyness for others :)
I'm watching Ghost Wisperer, I'm kinda crying, so sad :'( haha
Like the title said, I'm not feeling well, and i don''t wanna go to school tomorrow.
It's not because of the girls, but i have a lot of thinks in my mind, and I'm kinda worried :(
Just had to write this, for now i don't now if i have something to say.
OMG There's a really funny comercial on the tv right now, haha!
I had to make homework for tuesday, but i didn't make it, so i have to do it al tomorrow :(
I don't wanna think about school in the weekends, and i think a lot of people agree with me :)
I just wanna do fun thinks then, but mostly I'm just at home, I'm happy i have my laptop all the time, so i can do fun things at home :)
Oké, last thing was way way way to long! haha
I have only this week school, and then i have a week vacation!! :)
This was it for now... i think, I'm watching Ghost Wisperer... Scary, sad, everything...
Sorry but i'm gonna watch 100% haha
XOXO Ayla♥
zaterdag 13 februari 2010
Just can't without this blog! 14-02-2010
Hii!
I've made another kinda blog thing, but i can't without this one!
This is much personal then the other
http://aylablackkeys.tumblr.com/
Just wanted to let you know, i think tomorrow or Monday i start with really writing on this blog again!
xoxo
I've made another kinda blog thing, but i can't without this one!
This is much personal then the other
http://aylablackkeys.tumblr.com/
Just wanted to let you know, i think tomorrow or Monday i start with really writing on this blog again!
xoxo
zaterdag 6 februari 2010
Hii!
Hello!
It's late here!
But i don't care and I'm listening to the Planet Premier @RadioDisney from the soundtrack Starstruck :)
It's cool music!
But... talking about music.
I know a girl, Savannah Outen.
I know her music a lot time, but i deleted it from my computer.
Since a week i listen a lot to Radio Disney again :)
Then i heard Fighting For My Life from Savannah Outen.
I liked the song, and i wanted to download it.
After 3 days, i think, i downloaded it.
I found a Youtube video with downloadlink.
In the video were the lyrics to the song.
I just started to sing a long, and then i started to cry...
You stole my words and twisted them to yours 'till there was nothing left to say
You were the chill in the air whenever I turned
Turned away
Honestly you had to know how much it was killing me I had no choice,
I just had to leave
You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never, but I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I,
I just kept on flying Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!
Did your best to twist the lie and hold me under till I couldn’t See
Tried your hardest to take and break the voice that I have deep inside of me
I can’t pretend I didn’t learn the hard way but never again
You had your chance, but it just had to end
You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never, but I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I, I just kept on flying
Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!
No you won’t take me crying
No more tears falling on the floor
All the pain that I’ve survived
Made me stronger than ever beforeeeeee, yeah
You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never,
But I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I, I just kept on flying
Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!
You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never,
But I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings
I, I just kept on flying Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!
maybe you understand all this...
maybe you don't understand this...
But i understand it.
And maybe, if you have read all my blogposts then you understand
Haha, Nick Jonas just did a twitter spree...
I was tweeting! But i didn't get a reply :(
I really hope i get a reply sometime...
But i was lucky now... because i was there when he did a twitter spree, so i did get a chance, other people who are asleep now, did know it...
Oké i really need to stop with my long stories... haha
Goodnight People!!
XOXO
It's late here!
But i don't care and I'm listening to the Planet Premier @RadioDisney from the soundtrack Starstruck :)
It's cool music!
But... talking about music.
I know a girl, Savannah Outen.
I know her music a lot time, but i deleted it from my computer.
Since a week i listen a lot to Radio Disney again :)
Then i heard Fighting For My Life from Savannah Outen.
I liked the song, and i wanted to download it.
After 3 days, i think, i downloaded it.
I found a Youtube video with downloadlink.
In the video were the lyrics to the song.
I just started to sing a long, and then i started to cry...
You stole my words and twisted them to yours 'till there was nothing left to say
You were the chill in the air whenever I turned
Turned away
Honestly you had to know how much it was killing me I had no choice,
I just had to leave
You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never, but I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I,
I just kept on flying Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!
Did your best to twist the lie and hold me under till I couldn’t See
Tried your hardest to take and break the voice that I have deep inside of me
I can’t pretend I didn’t learn the hard way but never again
You had your chance, but it just had to end
You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never, but I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I, I just kept on flying
Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!
No you won’t take me crying
No more tears falling on the floor
All the pain that I’ve survived
Made me stronger than ever beforeeeeee, yeah
You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never,
But I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings I, I just kept on flying
Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!
You tried to lock the door with me forever
But I broke my own way out
You tried to build a wall to tell me never,
But I was never backing down
Oh you tried to take my wings
I, I just kept on flying Fighting, fighting, fighting for my life!
maybe you understand all this...
maybe you don't understand this...
But i understand it.
And maybe, if you have read all my blogposts then you understand
Haha, Nick Jonas just did a twitter spree...
I was tweeting! But i didn't get a reply :(
I really hope i get a reply sometime...
But i was lucky now... because i was there when he did a twitter spree, so i did get a chance, other people who are asleep now, did know it...
Oké i really need to stop with my long stories... haha
Goodnight People!!
XOXO
vrijdag 5 februari 2010
I think it's time for a long post! - 05-02-2010
Hii people!
How you'll doing??
Today was uncool! :(
They always ignore me, and they don't stop!
Only when we had a test, than they ask me how i did it! :(
I sat alone this morning, there were 2 girls from my class, but they didn't say anything and then they were gonna sit on the other side of the table. :(
I just don't know why they don't like me.
But I've got a plan!
Monday i have a talk with someone at my school, I don't really want to go, but i have to :(
And maybe tommorow i gonna send a mail to my mentor.
I wanna talk about it with the whole class, not only the girls, or the man, who I'm gonna talk Monday, or my mentor, no, the whone class!
Because I'm getting sick of it! really, I'm going craaaaazyy!!
So... I write this all.. but i know that no one is gonna read it, maybe 1 or 2, but not more than that.
It's just a therapy for me.
And..!
I'm gonna do a English exam!!
My English teacher told today that it was possible to do a exam, and i can do one next year if i want, and maybe 2 years later another one!
And i can't fail, it's just how good you are, its good for later if you wanna go to a College or a University.
Because I'm from the Netherlands, it's kinda inportant i have one, because maybe i wanna study somewere in the US.
I don't know, and i have a lot of years to think about that, haha
But I'm gonna sleep now, It's really late here!
Goodnight xoxo - Ayla
How you'll doing??
Today was uncool! :(
They always ignore me, and they don't stop!
Only when we had a test, than they ask me how i did it! :(
I sat alone this morning, there were 2 girls from my class, but they didn't say anything and then they were gonna sit on the other side of the table. :(
I just don't know why they don't like me.
But I've got a plan!
Monday i have a talk with someone at my school, I don't really want to go, but i have to :(
And maybe tommorow i gonna send a mail to my mentor.
I wanna talk about it with the whole class, not only the girls, or the man, who I'm gonna talk Monday, or my mentor, no, the whone class!
Because I'm getting sick of it! really, I'm going craaaaazyy!!
So... I write this all.. but i know that no one is gonna read it, maybe 1 or 2, but not more than that.
It's just a therapy for me.
And..!
I'm gonna do a English exam!!
My English teacher told today that it was possible to do a exam, and i can do one next year if i want, and maybe 2 years later another one!
And i can't fail, it's just how good you are, its good for later if you wanna go to a College or a University.
Because I'm from the Netherlands, it's kinda inportant i have one, because maybe i wanna study somewere in the US.
I don't know, and i have a lot of years to think about that, haha
But I'm gonna sleep now, It's really late here!
Goodnight xoxo - Ayla
maandag 1 februari 2010
2twenty6ten ???? - 01-02-2010
Hii
So... A short post!!
I found a video!!
And nobody knows what it's about!!
This is the link(tomorrow I'll post the vid)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OyeJ_jh1RjY
Byee!!
So... A short post!!
I found a video!!
And nobody knows what it's about!!
This is the link(tomorrow I'll post the vid)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OyeJ_jh1RjY
Byee!!
Jonas, Demi, Miley, Selena??? - 01-02-2010
Hi(again XD)
I was reading my blog...
And then i figured out that i talk a lot about The Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez.
Maybe you don't know who they are, so... Here are a couple pictures
Jonas Brothers
Demi Lovato
I was reading my blog...
And then i figured out that i talk a lot about The Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez.
Maybe you don't know who they are, so... Here are a couple pictures
Jonas Brothers
Demi Lovato
Miley Cyrus
Selena Gomez(sorry! I didn't have a better pic)
xoxo Ayla
Disney!! - 01-02-2010
Hello Hello!
Today was soooo cool!!
I sat alone because the girls who are sitting with me normally were sitting somewhere else :(
But... last week i said that there was a girl who was sitting next to me SHE DID IT AGAIN!
But this time was diffirent... this weekend she added me as friend @ YouTube and she said that when she was sitting next to me.
Then she asked if i had seen all the episodes of JONAS
She knows that i'm a big fan of The Jonas Brothers.
Then we talked about Demi & Selena and Miley!
So cool!
But after that lession we didn't talk anymore.
And it was the last Art lession :(
But i hope that we're gonna talk more, because she's is a cool person
xoxo Ayla
Today was soooo cool!!
I sat alone because the girls who are sitting with me normally were sitting somewhere else :(
But... last week i said that there was a girl who was sitting next to me SHE DID IT AGAIN!
But this time was diffirent... this weekend she added me as friend @ YouTube and she said that when she was sitting next to me.
Then she asked if i had seen all the episodes of JONAS
She knows that i'm a big fan of The Jonas Brothers.
Then we talked about Demi & Selena and Miley!
So cool!
But after that lession we didn't talk anymore.
And it was the last Art lession :(
But i hope that we're gonna talk more, because she's is a cool person
xoxo Ayla
vrijdag 29 januari 2010
Waching TV and Writing this Blog XD - 29-01-2010
Hey!!
Just wanna say that the last couple days where not funny for me!
I'm waching tv, Popstars(talentshow) The Finals!!
It's cool, but my favourite is out! :(
But now... back to the point ;)
I think the last time was... 3 days ago(I'm not sure)
The girls were nice to me Thursday :)
But not like i want to, i sat with them but they did more talk to others than to me :(
Today I just don't know what happend...
I'm so tired that i forgot the most!
When i was free from school, i had to go to my teacher with 2 other girls.
We had i talk, it was about History.
I had to do it with the 2 other girls, but we kinda had a fight.
But...
I know i have a real BFF!!! <3
And i really love her, but we don't live next to each other :(
And i hope that she has the best birthday tomorrow!
I hope you understand everthing what i wrote, because i don't know some words :(
Goodnight
xoxo
Ayla
Just wanna say that the last couple days where not funny for me!
I'm waching tv, Popstars(talentshow) The Finals!!
It's cool, but my favourite is out! :(
But now... back to the point ;)
I think the last time was... 3 days ago(I'm not sure)
The girls were nice to me Thursday :)
But not like i want to, i sat with them but they did more talk to others than to me :(
Today I just don't know what happend...
I'm so tired that i forgot the most!
When i was free from school, i had to go to my teacher with 2 other girls.
We had i talk, it was about History.
I had to do it with the 2 other girls, but we kinda had a fight.
But...
I know i have a real BFF!!! <3
And i really love her, but we don't live next to each other :(
And i hope that she has the best birthday tomorrow!
I hope you understand everthing what i wrote, because i don't know some words :(
Goodnight
xoxo
Ayla
dinsdag 26 januari 2010
Just don't know a tittle XD - 26-01-2010
Hellow!
Today...
OMG the girls did TO-TAL-LY ignored me!
There one girl, with 2 friends, sometimes she talk to me, but not a lot, so...
I didn't and don't care anymore, today i ignored them 2.
For me, i doesn't care anymore. so now I'm OK with it!!
In a hour i go to school again(yeah, i know! but I'm gonna help there)
There come soms parents from kids who are going to high school this year.
They are coming to look, and get information about the school.
I'd really wanted to help and I'm gonna do that.
I just have to tell people what it is to go to high school in the first year.
I really wanna tell people, because the teachers help me a lot, so i wanna say that to them.
I hope that there gonna be a lot new kids in the school next year. haha.
xoxo -Ayla
Today...
OMG the girls did TO-TAL-LY ignored me!
There one girl, with 2 friends, sometimes she talk to me, but not a lot, so...
I didn't and don't care anymore, today i ignored them 2.
For me, i doesn't care anymore. so now I'm OK with it!!
In a hour i go to school again(yeah, i know! but I'm gonna help there)
There come soms parents from kids who are going to high school this year.
They are coming to look, and get information about the school.
I'd really wanted to help and I'm gonna do that.
I just have to tell people what it is to go to high school in the first year.
I really wanna tell people, because the teachers help me a lot, so i wanna say that to them.
I hope that there gonna be a lot new kids in the school next year. haha.
xoxo -Ayla
maandag 25 januari 2010
For my friend!!!!! - 25-01-2010
Hii
I know, i said in the last post that i write a short message, but this is to someone who's very important to me!!
I hope you read this! -But i know that you're gonna read it, because I'm gonna spam you twitter, girl! haha no, I'm not gonna do that!-
I know that you're a real friend, a better friend i ever had.
I really love you for who you are, just the best person I've ever met!
We do not know each other in personal, but i hope that i gonna see you in real sometime.
I hate that we live so far away from each other!
xoxo -Ayla
I know, i said in the last post that i write a short message, but this is to someone who's very important to me!!
I hope you read this! -But i know that you're gonna read it, because I'm gonna spam you twitter, girl! haha no, I'm not gonna do that!-
I know that you're a real friend, a better friend i ever had.
I really love you for who you are, just the best person I've ever met!
We do not know each other in personal, but i hope that i gonna see you in real sometime.
I hate that we live so far away from each other!
xoxo -Ayla
Friends!!! - 25-01-2010
-- I'm sorry but this not good english i think!!! I hope you understand--
Hii!!
A little short message, because its late.
Today was... hmm... how do i say that??
Oké its was just normal!
The girls I'd like to hang out with did totaly ignore me :( (is that good English??)
But... i was in class and i was sitting alone, than there was a girl who saw me sitting alone.
She came to me and then she sit down.
Then her 2 friends came to her, so there were sitting on the same table as me :)
I was soooo happy!! (but i didn't say that)
Then the girl who was first sitting next to me, has to go, because the teacher sad she was too hyper! XD
The other 2 girls were talking and ask what is was gonna do this weekend, i didn't know.
Than she askd Why don't you hang out with friends sometime?
I said that i didn;t know why, dit still i did know why.
THAN SHE ASKD IF I WANNA HANG OUT SOMETIME!!!
Sorry.. that was in caps! but i was soo happy!!
The girls are very nice, but i don't talk to them al lot because they know other people from school :(
I don't know if we are really gonna do something, but i hope so!
When it was lunchtime i didn't see the girl, because - i think - they were in anothers building, so i sat alone and the others girls, didn't look at me at all.
But know i don't mind, I am who i am, and i'm not gonna be someone else for them!!
I hope you did understand it, because this was hard for my to write down, and i didn't know some words.
I just wanted to let you know that I not only write about things that are sad, but that there are things that make me happy!
Goodnight xoxo - Ayla
Hii!!
A little short message, because its late.
Today was... hmm... how do i say that??
Oké its was just normal!
The girls I'd like to hang out with did totaly ignore me :( (is that good English??)
But... i was in class and i was sitting alone, than there was a girl who saw me sitting alone.
She came to me and then she sit down.
Then her 2 friends came to her, so there were sitting on the same table as me :)
I was soooo happy!! (but i didn't say that)
Then the girl who was first sitting next to me, has to go, because the teacher sad she was too hyper! XD
The other 2 girls were talking and ask what is was gonna do this weekend, i didn't know.
Than she askd Why don't you hang out with friends sometime?
I said that i didn;t know why, dit still i did know why.
THAN SHE ASKD IF I WANNA HANG OUT SOMETIME!!!
Sorry.. that was in caps! but i was soo happy!!
The girls are very nice, but i don't talk to them al lot because they know other people from school :(
I don't know if we are really gonna do something, but i hope so!
When it was lunchtime i didn't see the girl, because - i think - they were in anothers building, so i sat alone and the others girls, didn't look at me at all.
But know i don't mind, I am who i am, and i'm not gonna be someone else for them!!
I hope you did understand it, because this was hard for my to write down, and i didn't know some words.
I just wanted to let you know that I not only write about things that are sad, but that there are things that make me happy!
Goodnight xoxo - Ayla
zaterdag 23 januari 2010
2010 the year of no FEAR! - Second post - 24-01-10
Hi!
Wow 2 post in less than 1 hour! haha
It's really really late here now.
I don't reallly have a lot of friends.
When i was in school, when i was 6 i had a lot of friends - I thougt -
I was 6, and everyone is young, and friendly, so no one is alone.
When i was 9 or 10 i started to feel alone, i was with 7 girls in a class and 8 boys.
The girls were nice, but the kinda ingored me.
When i was 11 i started with feeling really alone, i was totaly ignored, sometimes they talked to me, but only if they needed me, not just to say something.
But my teachers didn't do anything.
Sometimes i said to my mom that i was feeling sick, so i didn't have to go to school.
When i was 12 and it was the last class of school it was so hard for me.
I said to myself that i was gonna find new friends on high school.
But i hoped that the girls in my class didn't ignore me the last year, but it was the same as the last year.
That time i ignored the girls too, but we were going to visit schools, so the whole class had to go cycling.
I was always alone and has to hear everyone talking.
Now i'm 13
I'm in high school now.
In the vacation, i was hoping that everything would change, but it didn't.
The girls are nice sometimes, but if we have to work in a litte group or in pairs, im -again- always alone, or i am number 3
So mostly i have to go to the teacher and say that there's no one left to work with.
And they're always mad at me, because they say i don't work good with them, i hate that because i try to do my best.
And because i'm older i think always about who i am, and what the think about me.
Who I Am - Nick Jonas & The Administration
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
Nothing makes sense,
Nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right,
nothing is right when you're gone
I'm losing my breath,
I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death,
I'm frightened that I won't be strong
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I'm shaking it off,
I'm shaking off all of the pain.
Breaking my heart,
Breaking my heart once again
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
At last, something that i almost forgot:
I have one realy good friend, and i know that i can say anything to her.
But i live 149,7 kilometer away from her.
I really wished that she was my neighbor!!
I hope she reads this, because i love her!
xoxo
Wow 2 post in less than 1 hour! haha
It's really really late here now.
I don't reallly have a lot of friends.
When i was in school, when i was 6 i had a lot of friends - I thougt -
I was 6, and everyone is young, and friendly, so no one is alone.
When i was 9 or 10 i started to feel alone, i was with 7 girls in a class and 8 boys.
The girls were nice, but the kinda ingored me.
When i was 11 i started with feeling really alone, i was totaly ignored, sometimes they talked to me, but only if they needed me, not just to say something.
But my teachers didn't do anything.
Sometimes i said to my mom that i was feeling sick, so i didn't have to go to school.
When i was 12 and it was the last class of school it was so hard for me.
I said to myself that i was gonna find new friends on high school.
But i hoped that the girls in my class didn't ignore me the last year, but it was the same as the last year.
That time i ignored the girls too, but we were going to visit schools, so the whole class had to go cycling.
I was always alone and has to hear everyone talking.
Now i'm 13
I'm in high school now.
In the vacation, i was hoping that everything would change, but it didn't.
The girls are nice sometimes, but if we have to work in a litte group or in pairs, im -again- always alone, or i am number 3
So mostly i have to go to the teacher and say that there's no one left to work with.
And they're always mad at me, because they say i don't work good with them, i hate that because i try to do my best.
And because i'm older i think always about who i am, and what the think about me.
Who I Am - Nick Jonas & The Administration
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
Nothing makes sense,
Nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right,
nothing is right when you're gone
I'm losing my breath,
I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death,
I'm frightened that I won't be strong
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I'm shaking it off,
I'm shaking off all of the pain.
Breaking my heart,
Breaking my heart once again
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
At last, something that i almost forgot:
I have one realy good friend, and i know that i can say anything to her.
But i live 149,7 kilometer away from her.
I really wished that she was my neighbor!!
I hope she reads this, because i love her!
xoxo
First update! :) - 23-01-10
Hi!
So my first update :)
The really first one was just to say hi and explane a couple things.
It's Saturday, and it really late, but that doen't matter.
I said that i really love music.
Today, I've found a song.
I've only heard live versions, but today came the album out in Mexico, so i listend to a couple songs.
When i heard the lyrics of the song, i had tears in my eyes.
I thinks the lyrics are beautiful!
When i'm listening to the song, i can hear a lot of myself.
and i think that if i post the lyrics here, that you know a lot about me in 3 minutes
The song is called Rose Garden and here is the lyrics:
She was brought into this world
Out of a beautiful mistake
When her mom was just a girl
And her daddy didn't stay
She was working at age 9
At the flower shop in town
Working not just to survive
Cause life was throwing her around
In the rose garden
Where the rain is falling
And the thorns are sharpened
Rose garden, yeah
Rose garden
She was young but not naïve
Always wise beyond her years
Hoping that no one would see
Every time she dried her tears
In the rose garden
Where the rain is falling
And the thorns are sharpened
Rose garden
Don't let those petals fall
Don't let them fall on you
Don't let those petals fall
Don't let them fall on you
Yeah, yeah, yeah
In the rose garden
Where the rain is falling
And the thorns are sharpened
In the rose garden, yeah
Rose
Maybe you understand it, maybe you don't, but it's kinda personal.
How i see my world is hard, i have a little brother and he is sweet but he is very annoying.
we screem a lot at each other, and i'm mostly mad at him, and my mother to.
He can do nothing on it, maybe you know what i mean, but i'm not gonna say it here, because i don't know if it's oke with my mom.
It's a long post this time, but it's the first time, so i have a lot to say, haha.
Now this post is ending, i think that there's gonna be a lyric in a lot of posts, because it helps me explane some thing's
xoxo <3
So my first update :)
The really first one was just to say hi and explane a couple things.
It's Saturday, and it really late, but that doen't matter.
I said that i really love music.
Today, I've found a song.
I've only heard live versions, but today came the album out in Mexico, so i listend to a couple songs.
When i heard the lyrics of the song, i had tears in my eyes.
I thinks the lyrics are beautiful!
When i'm listening to the song, i can hear a lot of myself.
and i think that if i post the lyrics here, that you know a lot about me in 3 minutes
The song is called Rose Garden and here is the lyrics:
She was brought into this world
Out of a beautiful mistake
When her mom was just a girl
And her daddy didn't stay
She was working at age 9
At the flower shop in town
Working not just to survive
Cause life was throwing her around
In the rose garden
Where the rain is falling
And the thorns are sharpened
Rose garden, yeah
Rose garden
She was young but not naïve
Always wise beyond her years
Hoping that no one would see
Every time she dried her tears
In the rose garden
Where the rain is falling
And the thorns are sharpened
Rose garden
Don't let those petals fall
Don't let them fall on you
Don't let those petals fall
Don't let them fall on you
Yeah, yeah, yeah
In the rose garden
Where the rain is falling
And the thorns are sharpened
In the rose garden, yeah
Rose
Maybe you understand it, maybe you don't, but it's kinda personal.
How i see my world is hard, i have a little brother and he is sweet but he is very annoying.
we screem a lot at each other, and i'm mostly mad at him, and my mother to.
He can do nothing on it, maybe you know what i mean, but i'm not gonna say it here, because i don't know if it's oke with my mom.
It's a long post this time, but it's the first time, so i have a lot to say, haha.
Now this post is ending, i think that there's gonna be a lyric in a lot of posts, because it helps me explane some thing's
xoxo <3
Hey!
Hi everyone!
I'm Ayla, 13 year old.
I'm from The Netherlands.
My English is not very good, but I'm learning it! :)
I listen to a lot of different music.
I'm a huge fan of The Jonas brothers, i went to their concert November 13th 2009 and that was the best night of my life., it was also my first concert :)
I also listen to Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus, Selena Gomez, Nick Jonas & The Administration, Taylor Swift, John Mayer, Honor Society, The Veronicas, Emiley Osment, Cascada and a lot more, but their are just to many awesome musicians to put down here :)
You can read this blog, but you don't have to.
I'ts for myself, but i wanna share this with others.
There happens al lot in my life(I'm sorry, i dont know if its good English)
Most things at this time are not funny, but kinda sad.
I know... it happens to al lot people in this world, but a therapy for me is write things, stories, blogs and that kind of things and listening to music.
I really can find myself in some lyrics, sometime's i post a lyric.
I hope you like to read it, and i hope some people can give me advice, just post a reaction then.
I hope to post a lot, but i'm busy, with school and and homework :(
But i love to write, so that's easy for me! haha.
I really hope you like it! or just take time to read it!
XOXO Ayla
I'm Ayla, 13 year old.
I'm from The Netherlands.
My English is not very good, but I'm learning it! :)
I listen to a lot of different music.
I'm a huge fan of The Jonas brothers, i went to their concert November 13th 2009 and that was the best night of my life., it was also my first concert :)
I also listen to Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus, Selena Gomez, Nick Jonas & The Administration, Taylor Swift, John Mayer, Honor Society, The Veronicas, Emiley Osment, Cascada and a lot more, but their are just to many awesome musicians to put down here :)
You can read this blog, but you don't have to.
I'ts for myself, but i wanna share this with others.
There happens al lot in my life(I'm sorry, i dont know if its good English)
Most things at this time are not funny, but kinda sad.
I know... it happens to al lot people in this world, but a therapy for me is write things, stories, blogs and that kind of things and listening to music.
I really can find myself in some lyrics, sometime's i post a lyric.
I hope you like to read it, and i hope some people can give me advice, just post a reaction then.
I hope to post a lot, but i'm busy, with school and and homework :(
But i love to write, so that's easy for me! haha.
I really hope you like it! or just take time to read it!
XOXO Ayla
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